I Am Changing

When my husband came home last night, we went out to dinner. We picked a place where our son would actually eat. We went to Carrabba's Italian Grill. We had to wait 30-40 minutes for our table. Its a popular place. We ordered drinks and sat outside. I had a Cabernet. It wasn't long before I felt lightheaded, in need of bread or something else to soak up the effects of the wine. I am a bit of a lightweight (cheap date) now when it comes to alcohol. Normally, I bypass the warm bread. Last night, I had two pieces and two mozzarella sticks. Guilt? Not at all. I allow myself cheese. I probably shouldn't have had the salad though. I couldn't eat the main meal when it came. What did I order? It was called Pasta Sostanza. I ordered it with the whole wheat pasta. It was filled with good stuff like spinach, mushrooms, and artichoke hearts. I added the grilled chicken. The portion was huge. Now, most of it sits in my refrigerator. They are three boxes in there. We all had leftovers. I can't remember the last time we could finish a meal at a restaurant.
I couldn't sleep past 0630hrs this morning. My knee has been hurting since last night and when I woke, my back was aching. I needed to get up and move. I know its the impending hurricane. I don't feel anxious really. I know we have prepared as best we can. Its just that my broken body always reacts to weather changes. It has for years. As long as I am moving around, I am fine.
I came down, made coffee, turned on the tv, and fed the cat. She looked up at me, and seemed to say "What are you doing up so early?" Did I mention she has a limp? Her left paw bothers her. I think she also has a touch of arthritis.
I opened the fridge to get the Silk soy creamer. Our fridge is completely full now. My brother sent edible arrangements yesterday. I had to take out a shelf to make room. Did you notice all the chocolate covered stuff? I love my brothers. They always call, send a card, or send gifts on my birthday. I have been munching on the fruit since it came. The chocolate, I leave for the boys because over the past couple of years...I have been changing. I've tried to make better choices like low calorie, sugar free, or whole wheat. I've changed my attitude when it came to exercise. I say "I can and I will" instead of "I can't" and "it hurts too much". We can only do what we can...but remember...there is always something...we can do.

Have a peaceful weekend. Be safe. Together, we'll ride out the storm...

I am Changing ~ song from “Dreamgirls” (2006)

Look at me, Look at me
I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I'll be better than I am
I'm trying to find a way to understand
But I need you, I need you
I need a hand
I am changing
Seeing everything so clear
I am changing
I'm gonna start right now, right here
I'm hoping to work it out
And I know that I can
But I need you, I need a hand

All of my life I've been a fool
Who said I can do it all alone?
How many good friends have I already lost?
How many dark nights have I known?
Walking down that wrong road
There was nothing I could find
All those years of darkness
Could make a person blind
But now I can see

I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I'll be better than I am
But I need a friend
To help me start all over again,Oh
That would be just fine
I know it's gonna work out this time
'Cause this time I am
This time I am
I am changing
I'll get my life together now
I am changing
Yes I know how
I'm gonna start again
I'm gonna leave my past behind
I'll change my life
I'll make a vow and nothings gonna stop me now